The Soulmate's Gone

What can i say? Things changed. Clock and reversible. & the good has simply just vanished!

Goodbye old friend. It's officially a wrecked ship now.

Au-revoir!

The Few That Matters (:

Insyira Amin:- The Greatest Gay Ever (;
Oh sweets, I'd definitely turn lesbo-bo for you!! As gay as we can be, you always make my day. And many times, opportunities are wasted. But I dare declare, my dear, That I'll be waiting for the day when we both reconcile. I LOVE you sayang. && I'll always be here for you! Hugs && Kisses, XOXO <3

Nurafizah Amiruddin:-The Hottest Gossip Partner Ever (;

Oh darling; You were always there for me through thick and thin. Not once have you ever let me down nor disappoint me. Thanks for being there ZA! You are a shoulder to cry on. I appreciate that. I LOVE YOU ZAZA. I do && I'll always love you. Till Death! Hugs && Kisses, XOXO <3

Syahirah Anuar:- The Sexiest Homo-Partner (;

SAYANG! You are always there for me. Always supporting me in everything I do. You accepted me for WHO I am && not WHAT I am. "Kalau vir jadi pengkid, Syira jadi girlfriend vir ah." haha. I LOVE you syira. Always && forever. Till Death! Hugs && Kisses, XOXO <3

Aida Nadzirah:- The Love Of My Life (;

Baby!! ;) Nothing I can say to show you how much I LOVE you && that you're appreciated. Thanks for ALWAYS listening to my problematic life. "Life without DRAMA is Boring." Well said my love. Know that wherever you may be, a aprt of me will always be with you! Hugs && Kisses, XOXO <3

Sophia Farina:- The Phee-nomental Pheester (;

Although we're world apart, there has NEVER been a day in my life that has passes by without you in it. I LOVE you darling. So effin' much and I'll always will. As far as I'm concern you're my lil' pheester && I'll be your Vivi for the rest of my life! Hugs && Kisses, XOXO <3

Modelling For Dummies.

Models. We see them everyday on magazine covers, on TeeVee, on your mom's favourite top, on paper bags and even at the streets. Models have been quite the envy of every heart. Walking on runways. Being in every beautiful pictures. It all looks so easy. Yeaa, it looks simple. But what does it really TAKE to be a model? Have you ever thought about it? I've taken the time to ask a few people about their opinions on "what does it take to be a model". Many has given me the same feedbacks. Most people agree that a model should possess the looks and obviously the figure also known as "THE BODY". Oh, those beautiful long skinny legs, that flat tummy you've been dieting your whole life for, the height that never seem to come no matter how much you jump. Those are quite what they are searching for. but what does it REALLY take to be a model? Some potential people with extra theoretical experience from watching a little TOO MUCH of 'America's Next Top Model' and 'The Janice Dickerson Show' states that a model has to have The Personality. They has gotta have the confidence in themselves and the boldness to walk the walk. Only then we can see full spirit in the pictures. According to one of my favourite photographer, Ahmad Fares Zulkifli, a model must be able to play with the camera. She or he has got to know what to do when facing the camera. Now that's what we call a true model. Oh yeaa.. :)
Kudos to : Khalis, Kristy, Kathleen, Izhanis, Zuri, Scott & our all time fav, Fares

Precious Moments

There are moments in life where you feel like stopping time. Pressing the pause button to just FREEZE time. A time where you would just let go of everything. A time where you will leave everything you are doing just to treasure these special moments. For in a few minutes, what's left of it are only sweet sweet memories. Memories you know you will NEVER forget nor will u ever let it fade until you draw your very last breath. Many people have many different precious moments of their own. Memories of when you reach your goal of life. Moments when everything good is happening to you. Precious moments of my life have been the wonderful 16 years of living with my family. The chaos in the house and the noisy sounds of mah-jong. The fire dance me and my cousins used to do at night. Family moments carried me through the days. My friends left many scars upon my life. These scars are happy memories left deep within my heart. Spending time together, shopping, eating, sleepovers, the quarrels and those beautiful laughing moments followed by teardrop moments. These are memories i'll NEVER forget. Cheerleading. Another memory that means a lot. Being on the blue mat jumping and cheering around in our super cute cheer outfit. Whooo! How could I ever forget? Yet there is this one very interesting that had happened to me these past few days. Those super-duper-wonderful times on the phone. Talking to him and listening to his voice. The very first day I met him. Where and when. It's all recorded deep in this heart of mine. Texting him whenever I feel bored or sad. Chatting with him everytime he comes online. Every word means something. And every second means the world to me. Aren't these precious? These are the moments that I will TREASURE forever. Why are these memories so important to me? Why is it so precious? Because these are the thoughts that have been giving us the reason to move on with life. Among the types of memories I know I would treasure are:

• The Birthday Celebrations. ( Happy Birthdays!! )
• The High School Drama. ( 2004-2008 )
• The Graduation Day. (Goodbye high school, Hello university)
• The First Meeting. ( Where? When? Who? )
• The First Date. ( aww, )
• The First Hug. ( double aww, )
  
• The First Dance. ( I'm still waiting )
• The First French Kiss <33 ( I haven't got mine yet )
• The Wedding Day ( ding dong ding dong! )
• The Motherhood ( mommy mommy! )

Well yea, I can't wait to record all these beautiful memories into the memoirs of my life. Gahh!

Picture of the soul.

Ever tried snapping picture on and on and on. And how does it feel? A picture paints a thousand words. It tells us stories. It is an art. A piece of art that is so wonderfully taken. A picture can be inspirational. It can also be entertaining and soothing to the eye. Snapping the same model, same object but from many different angles? Yet a picture can be deceiving. It tell lies too. Photography is my passion. I love photography. I just LOVE snapping pictures. Pictures of trees, people, buildings. Pictures of myself. Camera whoring ain't a sin. It's an obligation to my soul. It keeps me happy and all perked up. And once I hold on to a camera, It's goodbye world and hello pictures. There is this special kind of kinky feeling. This feeling so pure, so strong. A feeling so real. A feeling I can never let go. It's a feeling that overcomes pain and sadness. A feeling so great it makes me happy. The feeling of FREEDOM. Where there is Virginie Laurency, you'll hear the beautiful sound of snaps. Chichakk Chichakk Chichakk Chichakk Chichakk! Here, there, everywhere. Pictures are all over the place. On the floor, in the desktop, pinned up in boards, hung up on walls, magnet-ed to the fridge. Gosh, I can't get it out of me. The freedom behind this box of film. This box of microchips ( since the world is more modernized now ). It's undeniable. I can be myself. I can take whatever I want, wherever I want, whenever I want, whoever I what and however I want! I feel like ME. And yet, I can be whoever I want to be. All it takes is pose in front of a camera and snap snap snap! Anyways, for me, I'm the photographer, I'm the model and I'm the image appeared on the photograph. Miahaha. I simply love camera whoring. I just can't stop taking pictures of myself. It boost my confidence and confidence is what I need to keep moving up in life. (: Therefore, snap all you can. And snap to your heart's content! Cause again, a picture paints a thousand words.

Wedding

Wedding. Oh what a sweet sweet word it is. Flowers are everywhere. Beautiful bluebells and lovely white roses. I can hear the big, shiny, silver bell ringing. Ding Dong Ding Dong! Wedding. Another bond. A bond more MAGICAL than any. A different but special kind of bond. A bond to start a new life together. A 2-in-1 bond. A bond of LOVE. There are so many many many different kinds of weddings. A ballroom wedding. A malay nikah style. There are church weddings, Chinese cultural wedding, Indian weddings too. Yet I imagined mine as a lovely white wedding. Preferably during the christmas. A white christmas wedding where everything is white and pure. Pure hearts and pure feelings. A wedding so ROMANTIC and MEMORABLE. I want a stylish white wedding gown, a white tuxedo for my husband-to-be, a white car to speed us to our new white house. And most important cold, white snows! I always wanted such a beautiful yet simple wedding to which will make my everyday life happy just thinking about it. All my life i've been dreaming. I've been fantasized. I have been dreaming about my wedding day. And apparently I still am. But a wedding day is just another ordinary day made special. A wedding is just another ceremony. But what is so special about a wedding? What makes a wedding so perfect is actually the couple. The newly-weds. The bride and groom. The LOVE they share. The commitments they are willing to give. The sacrifices they are willing to make. That's the WONDERFUL thing about this bond. A bond so strong yet so fragile. It only takes a wrong move and everything just crumbles down. So appreciate and give unconditional LOVE to your partner. By the way, A wedding day is actually the brides most important, special day. It its her and his greatest joy. Especially when there is the token of commitment. The wedding ring. A symbol of never ending love. Ain't this bond such a wonderful gift God gave us? Oh & oh! I'm still waiting for my pure white christmas wedding!

Cheer It Out Girls!

Cheerleading. It is no ordinary game. No ordinary sport. It is so much more than that. It is discipline. It is practice. It is passion. It is practice. It is TEAMWORK. Well, cheerleading is deep within my blood. It is a part of me. It is my heart, my soul, my everything! And i really love the sport for it is obviously my PASSION! Our school consist of two very important teams. One is known as the Southern Stars and the other is known as Anchorz. Since 2005 - 2006, I was from the team called Southern Stars. The colour for Southern Star is black,white and orange. But starting from this year, they took on a new colour. A new image. The colours are very cool and calming colours which is turquoise,white and black. They did pretty good this year. Anyways, I changed moved from Southern Star to Anchorz. Many may think that I joined Anchorz for a wrong reason. But anyways, I joined for the passion of cheerleading. Anchorz is known as the best new-comer for year 2006. We have been practicing very hard for this year's national championship. Practice was fun and entertaining. We NEVER missed practice unless there are issues. Anyways, this year we got rank number 6 out of 41 teams, which was pretty good but we were not contented with the scores. We had expected so much more. Therefore, we started our practices for Next years competition exactly a week after the competition. This time we are going to work up on the stunting and acrobatics. The coach is very mean. Ok, fine he is not mean. But he likes to pick on me. *Laugh Out Loud*. It all started because of my teammates. Coach says that a team captain must be able to do almost EVERYTHING in all three dimension of cheerleading which is The Dancing, The Stunting and The Tumblings. Fuhh!! It's super great hanging out with all my fellow cheermates. My fellow team members. There will be a lot of jumping and throwing and flying and running and jumping again. It is the best times of our life. We tend to come home with muscle pains everywhere. It is all OVER our body. And yes! Cheerleading is a very very super-duper-triper-quardruper-dangerous game. Far more dangerous than basket ball and football. There were cases where the cheerleaders got seriously injured. Wow right? Yea, I know. (: Somehow, my team, ourself, we lost a flyer exactly 3 days before the competition and she was not allowed to be in the show. Sad as we all were, it shows that cheerleading is very very dangerous so don't try it at home. And dear me, don't try it without basics. Cheerleading has actually set in a deep impact into my life. I couldn't believe that next year is my one and only LAST chance to be able to cheerlead. The competition is for inter-school only. And since I am NO LONGER a student in 2009, I can't dedicate myself for it! It kills me just thinking about it. But I know I am going to do my very best to get into the Top-3 next year. With the help of the Seniors of Anchorz, I know we will do so much better. Somehow, There are cheerleading teams of Malaysia. The most well known team is the CHARM ALL STARS. They represent Malaysia against Japan and other countries. Then there is MOCHA ALL STARS. This is one of my coach's ( Jude Benjamin Lisa ) own team. They are pretty good themself too. I surely do hope I am good enough to be able to join into one of these international cheerleading groups. At the end of this story, I would like to announce that ANCHORZ is gonna kick butts at the National Cheerleading Competition 2008 next year! Vote for Anchorz, Support us by wearing green. For we will stick to our colour which is the GREEN,BLACK,WHITE status in honor of our beloved seniors! We shared our fears, we shared our pains, we shared our stress. We had fun together, we laughed together, we eat together, we spend almost all our time together. We even spent the whole semester's holidays practicing together. These are very memorable memories which I will never forget. Most of all, we all shared one thing. We all shared the PASSION for CHEERLEADING!


Great thanks and note of appreciation to the seniors of Anchorz. You girls accepted us and trained with us. You were all a part of our family and you will always be. You girls will always remain as the founder and the leaders of Anchorz. There will be NO Anchorz without you. Therefore, Anchorz is always gonna be a part of each and everyone of us. Lots of love and respect. <333

-Faten (Captain)
-Syazmin (Co-Captain)
-Aqwim
-Athirah
-Dayang
-Nada
-Safwana
-Aliaa
-Emira
-Farah
-Rachel
-Zuraihan

*I also would like to say Welcome to all the new cheerleaders of 2008. (:

Love;;

I don't understand it. I can't explain it. This feeling deep within me. This fire burning so bright inside. Screaming to be set free. It is not just another feeling. Not just another phase. It is more than that. So much more than just a feeling. It is LOVE. Yes, it has to be. To say that I have fallen in love with you since forever, well, it isn't true. But I really did fell in love with you. Everything about you is so breathtaking. From the very moment you said that you loved me too, I couldn't help myself but shout for joy. You made my heart sing. Through the whole period, I was myself. Not afraid to be me. I don't need to put on a mask. I can be silly, I can me naughty. I feel so comfortable when i'm near you. You make me feel so beautiful. You make me feel so special. You make me feel Real. I was so happy being with you. You give me compliments which were like ice-cream on a sunny day. My heart is always lifted up, and my smile is always wide and it's all because of you. And then the time came for us to say goodbye.The end of something we haven't even started. It hurts. So bad and so deep. Everything just fades away. All the happiness and comfort flowed out through my glassy eyes. I was broken. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know where to go and how to live. I felt paralyzed. My heart is fragile, nothing seemed to matter to me anymore for my heart is shattered into tiny tiny pieces of glass. I am left with nothing but memories. But I had to let you go. I have to set you free. For you have found happiness out there and I shall not be the one to stop you from reaching it. It is simply because I LOVE YOU. I though I've moved on. I know I still think about you, about us every night. Yet I thought I moved on. But when I saw you again yesterday, oh how much i missed you. How much I long for you to tell me that you still love me. How I long for your touch. But I was only fantasizing. Just another moment of daydreaming. And I know reality. At least I am able to lay my eyes on such angelic vision. Such a wonderful sight. I laid my eyes on you! I LOVE YOU. I really do. I love love LOVE you so much. And I promise myself that I will wait for you. Hoping that you will realize how much I love you and come back to me. I wish that you're happy the way you are. I want you to know that I forgive you even though the pain is still here. I choose to live the pain. To know that I still love you. I pray for your safety and happiness. And know that I will always be by your side. I will always support you and I will always protect you. I'll catch you when you fall for I will NEVER want you to be hurt. Lastly, I hope you know that somebody loves you cause it's true. Believe it because I LOVED YOU THEN;;I LOVE YOU NOW;;I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER!! And with this tiny hope living in me, I will WAIT for you my love.

Love is patient, Love is kind.

Love does not envy, Love does not boast.
Love is not rude, Love is not self-seeking.
Love is not easily angered, Love keeps no record of wrong.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
Love always protects, Love always trust.
Love always hope, Love always perseveres.
LOVE NEVER FAILS.